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"It's not about the money money money"

Being born and raised in this world for 20 years, I finally have a better picture of how the world really is.

When I was young, I always thought that the world is so beautiful a place to live in and that I was so lucky to be a human being who can embrace the intelligence, as well as the fruit of the intelligence of our ancestors. What's more, I always thought that those "make the world a better place"s are goals that keep people working constantly. Maybe if I stay naive like that, I could have a happier life.

But no. I have seen so many ugly relationships, in which everyone is trying to get benefit out of the people they are with. You are very likely disagreeing my statement, but I have met people who say sweet words in front of you to get you do things and act like very good people to everyone else, when actually they are trying to use you for their own benefit, and even speak ill of you.

Take a look at people around you. Have you ever met the one who talk to you just in times they need a helping hand? How many people have returned the favor or at least be nice to you when they are strong and good by themselves? Have you ever noticed people try to get to know you because you are outstanding? How many people speak to you when you are dump, alone and have nothing?

I am sure you can easily answer those questions because not all people are benefit-attracted. In my case, I had friends who helped me in times of difficulty. After time passed, and I was still in need of help, they went away one by one, only a few remained. Those are people who truly care about you. However, they nearly go extinct. The reality is cruel.

I know a man who was publicly looking for a clever, rich, and beautiful girlfriend. Guess what? He really did find one because he is kinda clever, and have some impressive achievement , rich or you can say materialistic, but not very good-looking in my opinion. I say they make a good match. They complement each other so well.

Why people have to be so selfish all the time? I am selfish, too, but not all the time. I am an honest person, or I shall say a person who can't hide her emotions. When I dislike somebody, I say it out. I can't do the acting and can't stand people with the acting skills in real life situations. My group is shooting a documentary. All of us have ideas, but no one accepts mine. Then, there comes the time to editing, and everybody is pointing me to edit. Without the some necessary shots and scenes, they ask me to make it like this and like that. The selfish me just returned the work to them. The point is that there is a sponsor for our project. Therefore, whenever talking about the budget, they are very active but silent when it is about editing. How cool and naked the truth is.

The politicians, and all the big people. The speeches they make, how many percentage of lie? I used to be a L.O. for an event. I was responsible for the prince from a rich country, and the other was for the deputy of information from the same country. He treated me well, said good words to me, even bought food for me, but mocked me several times in public and implied that I did not do my work right. Maybe he had experience; maybe he was an International Relation student that he was so well-done in the job. But let me tell you, the tasks were super easy: take care of your delegates throughout the whole event. Anyone who speaks proper English can do the job.

After that, it turned out all those beautiful efforts he made in front of me meant to kick me out of the job secretly, and perhaps he was hoping I would still believe it was my own fault and still be good to him. Then what? When he got the job with the prince, he just never talked to me again nor looked at me with his both eyes. What the most hilarious thing was that he reported in a meeting with the boss and all other L.Os'presence that a media student did not deserve to be L.O. of the prince, and the committee should be more careful when assigning any L.O to any country. Thanks a lot, mate.

Can you tell me you get to know somebody not because of any purpose or agenda setting in mind? I am kinda lose faith in people. The more I live, the uglier I find human being is. Well, except my parents of course. There are still pure and true admirable relationships exist, but just tell me where they are? 

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